Pain is a Choice.. and it is Time To Let Go

All of this painPain I carried inside of meBecame my pain when I agreed to come into this worldI experienced painI experienced abuseI observedI participatedAnd then when I finishedI remembered that the pain was a choiceAnd I fully appreciate itAllI honor my experienceI embrace the lessonI am grateful to every sentient being who has helped

Rant on Religion (7/25/2016)

I became much happier when I stopped trying to save other people… they don't want to be saved! I think some people would be much happier if they did the same. It is not our job to help people see "the light" because the light is different for each of us. In fact, doing so

Don't You Want to Dominate Me?

It has been a year since I left The E It has been a year since I’ve been treated sweetly It has recently occurred to me, Last night, actually I miss being dominated  In a way Really, I miss being raped It sounds weird to say that Like that shouldn’t be ok But I feel

Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda

If I wasn’t so insecure, I would have left him when he told me  his favorite part about being married was being able to roll over and have sex whenever he wanted.   If I had known better.. I wouldn’t have compromised myself for fear of being alone.  I wouldn’t have done what I did


It’s been 365 days since I stood my ground.  One whole year since I said I didn’t want to be married to you.  I said I don’t want to do this anymore.  I don’t want to pretend I’m happy when I’m not.  We were both miserable.  I told you I didn’t want anything from you,