dear god,
help me let go of the people I spent my life trying to get love from
so I can open my heart to receive love from those who want to give it freely
help me to forgive myself for not loving myself unconditionally
for abandoning myself and letting them convince me that there was something wrong with me
and nothing wrong with them
help me forgive myself for believing I was the problem
for ignoring all the signs that I was being used
for saying yes when I wanted to say no
help me forgive myself for making excuses for their shortcomings
for over-functioning and hurting my body
for continuing to work when I needed to rest
for hurting myself, thinking it would please them or keep me safe
for feeling sorry for others and not for myself
dear god, help me forgive myself for staying too long in a relationship I was miserable with
for denying my soul in order to make myself fit into a belief system that raped me emotionally and harmed my daughters
for not listening to my conscience
for believing that the truth was a lie and that lies were the truth
dear god, help me forgive myself for believing I didn’t deserve any better
help me forgive myself and to let go
so I can finally live the life I deserve