Trauma is anything less than nurturing that changes your vision of yourself and your place in the world.
Today is all about letting go
Letting go of the guilt
The guilt I felt
In the womb
Guilt for being conceived
Guilt for being unwanted
Unexpected
Trauma in the womb
Hearing them all
Speaking negatively of me
Unborn
A belief created before I could think
A vibration I had
Of unworthiness
That I carried and emitted
Attracting people
And experiences
That matched
And reinforced
The belief
That I deserved the same
That I didn’t deserve to be loved
So I allowed
Myself to to be traumatized
Used
And abused
Until I was made aware
I deserve love
I can set boundaries
I can love myself
And eventually
Those who don’t love me
Will disappear
And those that can
Will appear
And I’m not responsible
For their behavior
Or decisions
I am only responsible
For loving myself
And I do
I love myself more than ever
Secure
And needless
No longer needing you
To fill the lack within me
For now that I’m full of my own love,
I have enough leftover to give
An abundance
As opposed to depleting myself
Out of resentment and expectation that you will
fill
Me
with love
that I lacked
Written 07/05/2016