He said
You just wake up and start attacking people and ruining their day
Actually, I wake up defending myself from the negative thoughts that attack me from the past
Voices programmed into my fascia and muscles
Causing my body to contort and contract in pain
Voices that say
I’m worthless
I’m dangerous
I should be locked up and put away
I’m unwanted and burdensome
I wish you would just go away
So yes I do wake up fighting
Fighting for my life
Against those who would have me put to death and miserable
The voices of my father
And my stepmothers
And my ex
And my children
The world would have me believe there is no place for me here
I’m not welcome
I don’t belong
When I listen to those voices, I am sent to a dark place
If I believe them and agree with them I will be paralyzed and die
So, yes, I do wake up fighting
Every single morning
I’m fighting to get my life back
From the people who made me believe I should give it up
I disagree with everything you think about me
I’m embracing who I am
Fighting what you’ve taught me to think I am
I disagree