I Am the Great I Am

I am beautiful. 

I am amazing. 

I have a beautiful smile. 

I can sing and dance quite well. 

I am strong. 

Stronger than I ever imagined I would be. 

I am forgiving

I am loving

I am wet 

I am learning Dutch. 

I am manifesting my wishes. 

I made a wish and it came true. 

Many wishes in fact… 

Fairytales… 

All you have to do is ask nicely 

and your wishes will be granted… 

I feel deeply.

I run away

I do yoga

I scream very loudly

I need to scream

I’m afraid to let it all out

I’m afraid that if I let it out

I’ll lose my stability

So I feel like I have to explain it

Make it into art

Into a colorful paper box

So that people can understand 

Comprehend

Art vs Insanity

Is it insane to scream your lungs out

Or

To dance freely

In the public square 

In the middle 

Of a restaurant 

Of traffic

In your car 

Behind the wheel

On your bike

On your run

Where is it just expression

Versus 

A straight line

To a straitjacket 

Coloring in the lines

Whose lines? 

I’ve memorized my lines

And rewritten them 

Several times

At least 4

Maybe more

I am crazy

Crazy about my life

Crazy about

My

Self

I’ve been cheated

I’ve cheated

What sane person hasn’t?

I know the rules of the game

Because I have made them up

All of them

As I go along

Careless? 

I guess that’s your perspective

But the truth is

No one cares more than me

That’s why it’s all so fucking painful

I care

Way 

Too

Much

Call me crazy

But I assure you

I’m not crazy

I’m creative

Creative Christie

Crazy Christie

That’s

ME

Composed 07/12/2016

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